Guys, blogging has been hard the past week. I've been putting it on my schedule to do and think about all week and it just hasn't been coming together. There's a lot of ideas that I keep pulling together, from Thanksgiving to Halo: Reach to writing new stuff to job applications and hope.
But none of it has really come together.
I started this blog, back in the Wordpress days, to be a place where I could share my writer's journey. Then, just my journey (which happened to involve a lot of writing). Then, I used it as a sort of daily diary to keep up with my moods and what was happening in my head any given day. I spent months truly in love with this blog and what it did for me.
So what's happening to me now?
Well, I think this blog still holds an important place in my heart. But I thought that writing more well-formed pieces mattered more than chronicling my daily struggles and victories.
Y'know, I've been growing up as a writer and career person, so I figured I needed to grow up here, too.
But the point of this blog was never to be grown up, was it? The point was to be raw and honest and keep my writing brain going on even the dullest of days. Maybe its my novel-writing that's getting distracting, or the rest of my life.
There are too many days, though, where I open this blog wishing I had something to say; anything to say.
Maybe trying to complicate this one aspect of my writer's journey is a bad idea. Maybe the best thing for my blog is to remain the safe, comfy space where I can talk and share everything that's going on in my world and on my mind.
So, instead of anything super deep or prophetic, I'd love to just share what's been going on in my life with anyone who's reading.
Our house set-up is almost finished. We have some painting and a bathroom project to do, but otherwise it looks and feels like ours.
I've started wearing headbands, which is an amazing revelation for me. I can play with my hair as much as i need while writing without giving it weird, ugly kinks in the front. And my hair's still cute. My life has honestly been changed.
Family life is weird but it is what it is. And friendships are much less stressful than before. I have gotten closer to people who care more about checking in with me and stopped putting so much stress into relationships with people who don't. It still makes me sad if I think about it, but I feel okay about it.
Now, to the exciting part. Writing life is awesome! And stressful and turbulent, but still! I am currently working on my first fantasy novel, which I'm really vibing with, something I haven't said about sci-fi fantasy novelization since I was a teen.
I also am starting a new, higher paid gig! It's super exciting to be able to feel a little more accomplished and appreciated as a writer and start raising my rates everywhere else in my life, too.
And past that, I've also been applying to new, higher rep and higher pay positions. I want to make progress in the writing world, and while my novels will always be my first love, I do really enjoy writing about nerd news. I like reviewing games and movies and going to events and finding out awesome things about the coolest, nerdiest artforms.
So yeah, let's see how some of those applications go! I hope I get something. I will work my butt off until I get bigger and better things. I've kinda decided to make a dream writer girl Stephanie in my head, and she travels to cool events, streams on Twitch, writes about all her favorite media, runs this fun blog, and writes books.
And I think there's an important distinction in that list. This is a fun blog, my place to kinda blow off steam while still doing the thing I love.
So, let's just pretend I never made that announcement a few weeks back, about decreasing the amount of blogs I'll do to try to make them better quality. If I write better quality ones, great. If not, these blogs are for fun and for me to connect to other humans who like writing, mental health advocacy, and just ride this life ship down the river with me.
So see you tomorrow, eh?